My life the past few months has been a really emotional rollercoaster. With heart ache, health and financial problems it really made me sit and think about my life and what I actually want to do with it.
Im 22, single, in a dead end job and still living with my mum. Apart from going to college and attempting university I havnt actually done anything with my life. I have never had a girlie holiday abroad, or in this country for that matter, I have never been abroad full stop, I dont drive, I dont have any career goal, I have absolutly no idea what I want to do with my life.
On the plus side I can say I have a job, so I am more fortunate than the people who have suffered during the credit crunch, I have a roof over my head that is affordable and I do have a loving family. I start my uni course next week so am learning a new skill.
When we reach year 9 at school it is drummed into us that we need to decide what it is we want to do in the future, I had my whole life planned out, the college courses the career goals my life in general, but when I actually sat down and thought about it, what I had planned was the last thing I wanted to do.
Now I am where I am it has made my head reel with the type of things I would like to do and I still cant decide. Does this mean I have no career as there is nothing that grabs my attention enough to think I could do that for the rest of my life, or is it just I havnt found that one thing that will drive me.