Life
My life the past few months has been a really emotional rollercoaster. With heart ache, health and financial problems it really made me sit and think about my life and what I actually want to do with it.
Im 22, single, in a dead end job and still living with my mum. Apart from going to college and attempting university I havnt actually done anything with my life. I have never had a girlie holiday abroad, or in this country for that matter, I have never been abroad full stop, I dont drive, I dont have any career goal, I have absolutly no idea what I want to do with my life.
On the plus side I can say I have a job, so I am more fortunate than the people who have suffered during the credit crunch, I have a roof over my head that is affordable and I do have a loving family. I start my uni course next week so am learning a new skill.
When we reach year 9 at school it is drummed into us that we need to decide what it is we want to do in the future, I had my whole life planned out, the college courses the career goals my life in general, but when I actually sat down and thought about it, what I had planned was the last thing I wanted to do.
Now I am where I am it has made my head reel with the type of things I would like to do and I still cant decide. Does this mean I have no career as there is nothing that grabs my attention enough to think I could do that for the rest of my life, or is it just I havnt found that one thing that will drive me.
I’m 24, at uni, with a part time bar job serving drinks to rich people and i live with my parents, and have less than no money. I know the feeling. Keep smiling!
School for me, rewarded the kids who were good at maths and science yet punished those of us who liked Philosophy and Photography and other subjects that they didn’t offer. We were kept in the “bottom set” for subjects we didn’t like, and it had a huge psychological affect. I hated school, and still hate what it stands for.